Thursday, March 3, 2016

1am and Unfiltered Thoughts.

I get it, I should be studying maths instead of written this. But I haven't written anything in over 3 months. So what I'm going to do is I'm just going to write whatever I feel like, no editing, no going back, no deleting. Just pure, honest thoughts.


Me not writing maybe because I've been too happy and satisfied or maybe because I've been really busy with exams.
And well, maybe because I saw my seniors pass out from school and I realised I have exactly a year left of school life. And probably not even a whole year. So you see, I've been busy participating and trying to make memories. Not that I don't already have so many, spread all over the school.

This realisation made me aware that in a year, I'll be at the threshold of a new life. And I will have a say in what kind of life after school I choose.

When I started writing this, I never intended this post to be about school and college. But I guess that's the only thing going on in my mind. And that's one of the only things me and my friends talk about.

Let's go back to the part where I said that I've been too happy and too satisfied and way too excited. And it's not like anything special happened. It's just that everything is falling into place. Don't get mistaken when I say everything is falling into place means that there are no stress. I'm fucked up by the stress of exams and coping with school. But that's completely a different story.
But in terms of general life, I've been well. I have learnt to be happy with myself and I have actually started enjoying my own company. Nowdays, I don't feel the need to be around people because I want to be alone.
I went to a trip to Chail, Himachal Pradesh and we went to a river side. And I spent all the time we were there on just sketching. And it was magical. All I had was sound of the water, birds and the rubbing of my pencil. It would sound weird if I say it like this. Thinking about it now, it really was one of the best trips ever.

I even went to Pune for a weekend. And even though it is a metropolitan city, I was really fun. I made new friends and experienced a lot of things for the first time and I realised the importance of water proof bags and shoes. And also, I came to a conclusion that if you visit a new city, no matter how many similarities are between that city and where you came from, you should take as many pictures as you can without being embarrassed about it. Hell, we stopped a guard for almost 20 mins just so he could take multiple pictures of us in different poses. It was hilarious and whenever I look back to those photos, I think about the time when we were trying to think of the poses and THAT was the highlight.


 



I spent most of my time watching old movies and because of them I discovered so many new songs and bands. I love all kinds of old music. I will probably make a separate page for all those songs. And also for my recent artworks.

Also, update on my life, I got a tattoo. It has a whole story behind it and people who don't know the significance would think I'm a teenager trying to be cool. But whatever. I'll tell the story sometime later.



and yes, I know this post is all over the place but I'm not going to delete it and I promise I did not edit it even once. SORRY. And there are so many incidents that happened and things I learnt in the last 3 months but I don't want to use all of that in one post. THANKS.





-lostwherever






6 comments:

  1. Hey, glad to know things are falling back into place for you! :D
    Also, would love to know more about your tattoo!

    Love,
    Saee

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    1. haha, yeah me too.
      And I would love to tell you about my tattoo. We should seriously continue with the emails like before, I kinda miss it. :/

      love,
      srishti

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  2. I'm glad life is going well for you, I do miss your posts in the spaces between though. So excited to hear about your tattoo!

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    1. I really wanna write more but 12th man, I genuinely don't have any time.
      I'm really excited about telling you about the tattoo..

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  3. Hey, where have you been?
    Long time, no posts!

    Love,
    Saee

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    1. I just saw this because I barely come online because of 12th. I have so much to write, will continue after boards pakkkaa. Thanks for asking <3

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