3:30am and Extremity.

I am filled with emotions, be it sad or happy or excitement or whatever. I feel my whole body is made just out of emotions and feelings and experiences... Actually I feel everybody's body is made out of feelings and experiences. Many people want to cover up their scars and bruises, but I think those tell what you are, what you been through and how you've lived your lives.

Anyway, that's not the point.

The thing is I've been noticing it a lot lately that even though I'm in a certain situation, I feel different emotions all at once. It doesn't make sense when I say it out loud but it is what it is. I'm an extreme. Either I feel everything at once or I not feel anything at all. I have never been about balance or measurements.

This realisation hit me a while back .  I made these then. 

People who have seen these before ask me what my thought process was while making these and I just end up explaining what each means. To be honest, there was no thought process behind these. And mostly, there is no thought process behind my artworks. I never really told anyone this because I just think I need to understand my work better. But the thing is, it doesn't fucking matter.

Each of these are part of a series called perplexity and the main emotion behind each is confusion(obviously). I wanted to show "the realisation" a little clearer but while I was making it I thought it was better to focus on one emotion better.

The interchange of the eyes and the teardrop in the first one and the use of a foot to hold the plate shows that there is a hell lot of chaos in my life but the symmetrical interchanges of things show the simplicity and the perfectly fitted parts of my life.

I think it's weird that I don't figure out my artworks till they're finished, or about to get finished. I did try to think of a reason to make a particular drawing before I put it on paper, but it turned out not so great. I genuinely don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing.

-lostwherever

PS- I'm going to start a new thing where once a week I write about a new discovery made by me(most of all about music and artists) or I would explain(or try to explain) one of my recent artworks.